i think i much prefer being addicted to coffee rather than something much worse.

No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters.
off to the cinema. it’s a rainbie kind of day.
20 days till i go home. i can’t tell if i’m relieved or worse.
things i’ve become mildly obessed with:
- downloading unecessary quantities of music
- experimenting in the kitchen
- being meticulously efficient or sedentary & slothlike.
- trueblood. pft.
- overanalyzing everything in my path.
lists help.